Perception

I know that some people claim that they don't care what people think about them regardless so why do you change up depending on who you're around. Having the ability to adapt is one thing but SWITCHING THE GAME UP is a whole other thing. Be yourself, but be consistent...Keep in mind what people say when they're in your face and behind your back....if you died today what would people really say about you.....keep that in mind when you carry yourself every day. I just thought about that being as though Michael Jackson was lost today.....what are people saying about him now that he's gone......what did people really think of him while he was alive....it's all so crazy to me....RIP Michael....until next time.

Be Careful

Be careful about the people who you associate with and the people you confide in. People come in and out of your life like seasons but the real ones will be there year end and year out. Been disappointed by plenty of people this year man, but I am a strong woman. I hate when you confide in someone in someone that is supposed to be your friend and when a discussion arises they take it personal and rub it back in your face. I think that is so petty beyond belief. I hate when people stop talking to you over petty stuff and call everyone their best friend that they're not. People are completely flawed with not identifying who they are and what they stand for...and if you stand for nothing you will fall for anything...where are some real intelligent open minded people out here that aren't with all this shiesty mess going on....anywho enough with the drama....time for fun. Until next time.

[J]

OMG

So I've been watching B Scott's video for years. I practically love him. Not only is he inspiring, but he is so dag on funny!!! I was waiting on him to comment on this video and he did!!!!! I feel like it's christmas! The sims 3 comes out tomorrow.....OMG (too excited) Well onto continuing to lay in my bed until i feel like getting up to do some spring cleaning.

Been Gone For A Minute....

yeah so i guess we have a lot of catching up to do.. i've been spending the last couple of months analyzing and re-analyzing my life. i've made a lot of decisions...and changed my mind on almost all of em lol.....I DECIDED TO JOIN THE AIR FORCE! and i'm ridiculously excited about it...everybody keeps asking me why i'm joining..and its a lot. i've been out of high school for 3 years and i just feel like theres so much more i can be doing with my life. i know its not going to be easy...but the things that are worth it usually aren't...which leads to my next topic...my love life has been up & down the past couple weeks or so... we're both just trying to figure out why things arent like they were...or why they arent like we feel they should be after 2 years. i've been trying to figure out if it was worth trying anymore..and if i should just walk away..but no matter how hard i try to...i just cant...and its been the same for him...but the fact that we tried to walk away from each other bothers me..but maybe it shouldnt...i mean...we're still here right?? UGH! work! i'm convinced that mimi's is going to work me to death lol. 40 hr weeks are NO joke when u work in a restaurant. theres  no desk to sit at..and u have to deal with people and their bs....but i'm making BANK though!!!! soooo....y complain?? i've been dealing with home issues a lot lately too...and i've been thinking about moving...even transfered jobs..but i've come to realize that my biggest problem is that there is only one stable thing about me...the fact that i ALWAYS run when i dont want to deal with things..and usually i end up in a more ridiculous situation than i was in...so i decided to stick it out..stop running..and oh idk GROW THE HELL UP!! lls (yeah i just went on myself a lil bit) well i guess thats it...B IS STILL A FOOLYWANG. THAT WONT EVER CHANGE. until next time people..promise it wont be so long..

{C}

A pack of hair is all I ever wanted! + IT

WTF is what you're probably thinking. But that's what I was thinking when this hot ass chick Myamee wins "I Love Money 2", and cries as she says "Now I can buy all the packs of hair I want." HHMMMM! Well I don't know about ANYBODY else, but that aint what anybody should be thinking of. Once again we go on TV and give them something to talk about. Never ceases to amaze me at the things we do and say. I know we can't categorize everyone for her ignorant comment, but it needs to change!! Whatever happened to paying off your bills, or even investing in a home. Maybe she has all she needs, ,IDK! Just thought I was the only one to catch that and I wanted to bring it to the forefront!

IT has issues. That's all I'm going to say about IT!

Anger has been getting the best of me

Psalms 37: 8 says Cease from anger and forsake wrath;fret not yourself-it tends only evildoing. For evildooers shall be cut off, but those who wait and hope and look for the Lord [in the end] shall inherit the earth.

I will think of this every time I become angry with what is going on my life I need to think about this. I've went through so much this week alone and I've had mixed feelings about so many things going on with school and home. My frustrations have been gradually coming out but they came out in a way in which I thought I would never have to be brought to. I need to stop dwelling on how other people think about what I should be doing and focus on how I'm doing it. Apparently I'm not doing something right in their eyes if they coming at my head in an ignorant way about it so it is what it is. I declare to myself through blogging that I will let go of this anger because it takes energy to be angry with someone. It doesn't take any energy to be indifferent and thats what I choose to be. The semester is almost over NO MORE 8 Oclock classes....Life will get Better

I declare, God that the fountain of Life is with you, in Your light, I see light [Amen] Good night...

[j]